Blessings & care Jesse & family  / Jane Einarson (I care )
Jesse, Thinking of you & your special family this season. Please watch over them. You will all be in my thoughts & prayers. God Bless. With love & respect, Jane ((Matthew's Mom)) Close

from another grieving Mom  / Cindy (POS) Janikowski
Such a wonderful tribute to such a beautiful handsome young man. I am so sorry for you loss and that we have to travel this long lonely road together. Jesse, you are always loved and missed  by many.You are in my thoughts and prayers.
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I still don't know what to say....  / Dara Woodworth (Old Friend )
Still everytime I see his picture on my Myspace, I am always feel so terrible about this whole situation and all of the Mercier familys' loss... I hadn't had a chance to speak with Jesse since we used to ride the bus together back in grade school. He was always very quiet... and as the years went on I never had a chance to keep in contact with him since I had left the school district. Then one night I found him online and I was so happy. I was happy that I had found an old friend from my old school. Him and Kristina both and I had just started getting to know him all over again, and then this happend. I feel terrible.... Speechless, and I never ever could have thought that someone who was loved so much by so many people would want to do such a thing. He was a great guy, who deffinatly left a mark in my heart, one that I hadn't never forgotten about and never ever will. He always had such an unforgettable smile on his face everyday, one that no one will ever forget. I feel terrible about not being able to make it to say goodbye, but I do have serious family problems going on of my own that I've been trying to help my father out with and I've been of town for the past few months, but I wanted to let you all know that I'm so sorry that I wasn't there.... and I wish I could've been there to say goodbye one last time... and I wish i had been there for Jesse when it was needed most... I can tell you this though Jesse is up there in Heaven.. looking down on all of us, and he knows now more then ever, just how special he was to all of us...and I think he knows just how much he's missed. I have my candle lit in loving memory of him and I hope things are somewhat getting easier for the Mercier family... especially Kristina I hope she knows just how much her brother loved her and hopefully that can give her strength to smile once again, I'm here for her and she knows it..and for all of you. Jesse will never be forgotten and he will always have a spot in my heart.... R.I.P. with much love always and forever! xoxo
Till we meet again.... ~ Dara Woodworth
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Today is harder than ever missing you, bubby........  / Mama Mercier (Mom)
Today is harder than ever missing you, Bubby..... for some strange reason it is very hard on mommy today without you here. I am so alone.... walking by your room, still smelling your presence, in your untouched bedroom.... I peer in to find that, yes, you are still gone. I have hoped with each passing day I would wake from this nightmare to find you still here with me.... but I guess I need to let go of that glimmer of hope... because in all reality you are really gone... from our lives here, but in a better place. I will never ever understand why you did what you needed to do that day. All I know is that I gave you that money to let you go Christmas shopping... and told you not to sell your DVDs in order to buy us gifts, that you wanted to.... money is just money... but now I have to live with giving you the "opportunity" to do what you did.... God only knows why.... I stopped looking for notes, for letters.... you never said goodbye... you just walked out of our lives and chose to do something I never dreamed that you would do... take the precious life that I gave you.... so in my heart, I feel I have passed as well... the emptiness is unbearable and I will never ever be the same again... until I look into your shining, bright beautiful smile up there in heaven.... God bless you, Baby... dont forget that mommy loves you more than life itself.... be brave and watch over Kristina... she misses you so much as well.... and I worry about her everyday....I love you, Jesse.....my angel, my son....... I love you.... Close

So Sorry!!!  / Lisa Szymanksi (Visitor to site )
I am so sorry for your loss.  My brother n law/very good friend. which is my sisters husband-and my husbands bestfriend took his life on February 1, 2005 -he was 31 years old.  He left behind so many people who loved him and a 3 year old son.  The survivors suffer so much after this.  None of us have ever been the same-you dont smile as much-you dont laugh as much-you just are not the same.  I guess I just wanted you to know that there is other people who know how you feel-it is truly horrible.  May god bless all of you through a very difficult time!!!! Close

Jesse May You Have Your Peace.  / Argia M. Caines (A Friend of Wanda's )
Dear Wanda:

What a handsome young man. He should be here. I am so sorry for your loss of such a precious life.   I wish you comfort and peace in knowing Jesse is safe from all harm now. He will be your guardian angel for ever more. Thank you for letting me get to know Jesse a little better.
Take care and Be safe.
Argia, Mother of my Beautiful Raphael
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Prayers and empathy...  / Kari ((passer-by))
I can't begin to express my empathy to your family and friends. It's so hard to be the ones left behind. My son lost his father in April when he chose to take his life. The shock,anger,grief and questions are so indescribable.  I don't think a day has gone by that it doesn't hurt! Michael was 29 and our son, Nathan, is going to be 12 next month! I would like to tell you that it gets easier but I can't!!  All the support of family and friends definitely helps though! You are all in my prayers...and will continue to be everyday... as I pray for peace for Jesse, his family, and friends......Kari
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MY CHILD  / SELMA FLYNN BOBBO.MEMORY-OF.COM (FRIEND)
"MY child

On the day God took you
I thought that I would die
I wondered where the time went?
I asked alot of whys??
With people all around me
I felt alone inside
From all their words of comfort,
I couldn't seem to hide, I thought I might be dreaming
That I'd wake and find you here,
I thought "This can't be happening."
As I wiped another tear.
On the day that you were laid to rest
My heart broke yet again,
I wondered if the pain would end,
But mostly, I wondered when??
It's hard to be without you,
At times the days seem long,
Sometimes I just sit crying,
When there's really nothing wrong.
I wish we'd had more time,
Before your life was done.
I hope your resting peacefully,
My precious child,
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just passing it on  / D'Lanna (didn't know him )
On the day God took you
I thought that I would die
I wondered where the time went?
I asked alot of whys??
With people all around me
I felt alone inside
From all their words of comfort,
I couldn't seem to hide,
I thought I might be dreaming
That I'd wake and find you here,
I thought "This can't be happening."
As I wiped another tear.
On the day that you were laid to rest
My heart broke yet again,
I wondered if the pain would end,
But mostly, I wondered when??
It's hard to be without you,
At times the days seem long,
Sometimes I just sit crying,
When there's really nothing wrong.
I wish we'd had more time,
Before your life was done.
I hope your resting peacefully,
My precious one

A SWEET LADY POSTED THIS ON MY DAUGHTERS SITE AND I WANTED TO PASS IT ON TO YOU, GOD BLESS AND MAY HE GIVE YOU COMFORT--STEPHANIE-MCEWEN.MEMORY-OF.COM Close

I am so sorry for your loss, I lost my 23 year old son to Suicide  / Cheri (Visitor)
I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Jesse.  I lost my 23 year old son to suicide on May 30, 2004. My life will never be the same. My son enjoyed many of the same things as Jesse. Brian loved music, playing his guitar, video games, watching and playing basket ball. My thoughts are with you. I hope this site will bring you comfort in time, it is a wonderful tribute to Jesse. Close

Lost my 31 year old son to suicide.  / Mary Ann Vaughan (Visitor to site )
Dear Wanda - Just wanted to let you know you are not alone in this nightmare of dealing w/suicide.  My precious baby boy shot himself through the heart & lung Oct. 18, 2004, just a month after his 31st birthday.  He was the joy of my life.  Loved hunting 4 wheeler riding & all the redneck life.  I learned yesterday that his 186 acre farm will probably be auctioned off next month.  It breaks my heart all over again. Please visit his site & read the letter his niece wrote for school after his death.  My heart & prayers go out to you and all who loved your son. Only the people who have gone through this type of death know the agony & pain, and all the unanswered questions.  God bless Mary Ann (my sons name is Bryan Story. Close

So sorry!  / Brenda (Candices Mom) (Passerby)
I am so sorry for the loss of your wonderful handsome son.  I know your pain, I feel and live with it everyday.  My daughter also took her life, April 2003.  She is my special angel.....she will find Jesse and guide him to his new home. 

My heart goes out to you and your family....it is a difficult long journey.  If you ever need to talk feel free to contact me:  brenda_sue@hotmail.com. 

God bless you...
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Thinking of you  / Yvonne Proctor (pos friend from the uk )
The words you wrote said it all, the pain...Every mother and Father here on pos are going through this tunnel with you.
\jesse will be up there with all our other angels, looking handsome as ever!
Maybe he has met up with my son Richard?
God bless you and the rest of your family. love and friendship.yvonne Close

A parent  / Bill (POS Family )
Such a beautiful tribute to such a wonderful handsome young man. I am so very sorry Wanda. Thank You for sharing your son with us. We are with you every step my friend.  Close

Rock ON!  / Saul Sanchez (bro)
Bro, can't believe you are not here, but i can feel ur precence in me. we share the same dreams bro, and i swear by God, that one day i will do that for you man! The tours, the parties, and the women bro, just for us and no one else man. I will always miss you because u inspired me to love what i love, and you pushed me to be who i am now, and i thank you so deeply for that. Rock heaven as hard as you can bro cuz i know u can. one day we will see each other again, i promise that, and we can headbang from dawn to dusk non stop. In my heart your name, que descanses en pas mi hermano, te quiero por siempre!!! Close

Hang on to the good times!!  / Olivia Rothrock (Friend)
Wanda and Kristina,
I truely can not remember back to the times when we first met, we go so far back.  In girl scouts you were like family to me, and i remeber jesse was so much like peter.  He always pestered us and tried wrestling with us. Jesse and Peter could never talk to people about their problems and how depressed they were.  Both were in the process of pulling their lives together, and something happened.  No one will ever know what hooked them on their decision.  We just know the pain we felt and the pain we feel everyday.  I promise you both it does get easier with time.  I cannot try to imagine what it is like to lose one of your precious bundles of joy, but kristina i do know how it feels to lose your brother.  I grew up always being antagonized and always arguing with peter.  I regretted so many things.  I went through the what-ifs and i wish i didn't do this i cant even begin to count the times.  If you dont want to talk about it I completely understand, but please use me as a friend, griever, sholder to cry on, anything.  I love you so much and I miss you more than i can describe.  I want to be there for you.  The trick is to remember all of the good times and hold on to him in your hearts.  As long as you hold on to him he will live forever.  I love you both and Jesse is with Peter now they will protect eachother and watch over the people they love.  You need to be at peace before he will be at peace.  Let him Rest In Peace with all who have passed before him.  Close

I'm so sorry for your loss  / Deana McGowan (Friend)
I am so sorry for your loss. I wanted to thank you for putting my poem up at the wake for Jesse. I also wanted to say I'm sorry I couldn't make it home for the wake and the funeral. Jesse was such a beautiful person. Your son could light up the room at any given moment and that's what made him so great. And I know that right at this very moment Jesse is watching over all of the ones he loved including you.......his mother. I wish I was there to give you a hug and talk to you in person. Just know that when I come back home I'm definately stopping over to see you. Know that you have so many people that are here for you to walk you through. I will always remember your son as the smile that made my day brighter. Like you said..........shine on. Close

im very very sorry  / Amanda Myers (friend from high school )
hi wanda
im amanda i new jesse when i started high school as a freshmen. i would say hi and good morning to him. we would talk on my space all the time. its so hard to believe hes gone. but hes in a good place watching over the people he loves and his friends. hes a guardian angel now and will forever be in everyones heart. once agian im so sorry for the lost of jesse. i remember my sister crystal myers comming home and telling me that i lost one of my friends. its so hard. it was so hard on me i tried to go to the wake and burial but i could not face the fact that hes gone. wanda you have my respect and deepest symophty at this moment.
ill proberly write in here agian.
sincerity yours
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I am so sorry  / Dawn Lutek (another grieving mom )
I am so sorry for your loss. Such a handsome young man. No parent should have to endure the pain of losing a child.I loss my son,Michael he was 19. It was just 1 yr of his passing on Nov15. This is a difficult journey that was not given to us by choice. As you well know our lives will never be the same. I am keeping you in my prayers. Please feel free to read about my Michael at
http://michael-lutekjr.memory-of.com Again I  am very sorry for the loss of your son Jesse. Close

To my bubby, Jesse.....  / Wanda Mercier (Mom)
                                                                             11/15/2005
  
    Its two weeks... since you took your life that I gave you and I had to give you back to God. The calls have stopped, everyones gone home, and I am here alone without you.... the emptiness of this house, the quietness of our home... things are not the same without you here.  Trying to get up everyday and do things like I used to do... but things wont ever be the same. My heart longs for you every beating second of my day.  My first born... my flesh and blood, no longer here on earth... my soul is weeping for you..... I regret having to face this feeling everyday for the rest of my life... the absense of your presense. I would give my left arm to see you come downstairs and ask me to go outside for a smoke.... seeing your smile.... listening to you banging around in the kitchen fixing yourself breakfast.... hearing Geana yelling because you wont stop pestering the crap out of her.... Its too quiet here now. You are missed by us all. I tried to be strong for your friends, for Geana, for Megan.... You should feel so very blessed for having the best friends a guy could ever have. You were half of my age and had so much ahead in your life. A good heart, a generous soul... and He didnt take me... he wanted me to suffer more... more than I ever have. This will never heal, go away... You were very much loved, Bubby.... by your mommy.  I wish I could turn back the hands of time to have you here again... but I cant, and I have to learn to accept and have faith in what God has in store for us and the things that happen through this journey in time....

Dont worry about me. I will be fine...I will sit here alone, and hear silence, the ticking of this clock, and count the days, until I see your smile again..... wait for me....

Smile your brightest smile, walk with the Lord, and be at peace, my son.... shine on you crazy diamond... shine on........

 

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